Under the Heavens

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Through the siloutte of my window blinds, I can see that the heavens have opened up
I've no sense of what day it is,
My room smells of unwashed clothes and alcohol,
It feels like an eternity since I stepped out of my self contained Hell,
My brain tells me that I need a lot more than a bath and shave

I step out, into the pouring rain to feel nature's blessing
As the tears of the God brush my face, I remensince of the days that have slipped away
Days, that all have turned into ashes by the fury of hells's fire
I stand in the rain hoping it washes away the ashes
Into the streams of an unknown ocean

The rain has extinguished the heated earth
Maybe, I should step into town,
Make contact with living and not just speak into emptiness
As the town draws close, I can see the moon in the sky, protected by the clouds
The shining lights, and buzz of the town strikes me
I feel lost in this oceans of people, Do I belong to this herd
What am I doing here?

Then You comes along, and pass me a reassuring smile
As if everything is ok and to be at ease,
And then you just disappear into the darkeness
Who are you and where did you go?
Desperately I look around to catch the smile that left me in a trance
Then I catch your eye and you're sitting across me with your beautiful smile
Is it what you say, or is it how you move, I feel memerised
I can just feel the room disappearing into the background,
With just us the two of us light in it,

As the night passes by, so does the inhibitons and its attachments
As I move close to you, Your clothes dissolve into the night,
And you come and lay next to me, and pass me your love
As We make love into the night, I take you into my heart and pour it into you
And you just smile, and kiss me...The night passes on...

Its morning again, and it's raining again
You're lying next to me,
I've no more ashes to be washed away
Only a beautiful day in the rain....With you...

Lucifer, I hear you await me

Lucifer, I hear you await me

How many drips of alcohol will it take for you to show yourself

Come out of your hiding, I want you to burn me, I'm ready to see you in your true colors

Send me to your hell and your abyss, and burn me into ashes

You hid behind her mask, as you enamoured me, you promised me the world,

Then you left me behind in the woods, lonely, desperate and lost

You made me scream into the night, wail like a wolf in the wild

Wail I did, as I sought salvation, and for someone to light the woods

But nobody came, my tears became darker and so did the night

Bruised and incapable,you took me into your world

Showed me the lusts and temptations of the flesh and its attachments and asked me to sin,

You told me, I would burn in your kingdom if I didn't obey

And I whimpered, as my skin burned

But I can't live on like this, and I can't make you make me,

Burn me at the stake, throw me into the jagged rocks, for am I not afraid anymore

I will wait for you on the hilltop, and I will face you alone

I've left the world behind for I no longer care for the remnants of it

I want you to do your worst, for I will face you and defeat you

And you shall fall again from your kingdom

Father I need you...

Will I dissolve into a meaningless being

Or will i take the fight to bring my life some meaning

Am I an angle sent from the heavens

Or just being suffering through disillusion or madness

As I struggle to cope up with my petty life, I see chaos and uncertainty ahead in these roads

They seem to heading into a dark alley, where I will be beaten into pulp again and again

Why do I suffer so, I wish I knew, for I've no answers

In my fits of alcohol, I look above and ask Why, why my lord

What did I do, for what have I sinned, or what have I wronged

Did the Father not tell you of the sins that I didn't commit

Why do you do this to me?

I cry my heart out into the emptiness, asking for this misery to end,

I pray that this night ends and that there is hope

But I cry alone, I pray alone, I sit alone, as my life slips into insanity and madness

Father, won't you help me out, won't you bring me a vision of your plans for me

Don't foresake me in this endless night, I need you

I will wait on the hilltop, to seek your deliverance

I do not belong to anyone or to anything, I've nothing left but hope

Give me my shining day in the sun

if not I will not be afraid to face whatever you want me to go through

But Father please don't forsake me, for I need you in this endless night......

Tales of Alex and the Space Exploring Dinosaur- Chapter 3: Us & Them

Chapter 3: Us & Them

“How is this even possible? Since when did beings have forms of guitars and walls? And why do they speak English? Come on this has to be a dream!!!!”

Sam reassures Alex “ Listen kid, how can you possibly think of this being a dream. Is being on the moon unfathomable? Did those history textbooks tell you that Dinosaurs went extinct? Think again. Now about the Guitar Creature, it dissipates some of the best forms of sound known to any kind in the universe. Does it matter how it looks. Do you still not want to believe that it’s all-real” Alex gives him the stare, thinking, “ While this Dinosaur is surely crazy, why he makes sense as to why I would want this to be not real, its awesome” Sam smiles at him, and nods “ Yes it is”.

As they approach Floyd & Pink, Alex recalls of those long afternoons that he used to spend with his mom. He never understood the strange noises those records made, especially her favorite The Dark Side of the Moon. And now he feels it makes complete sense that it sounded so out of this world, it was of alien origin. Literally. But yet he is more reminded of the sense of calm and peace he felt as he listened to "Us and Them", as he drifted into the realms of his subconscious where everything was slow, peaceful and beautiful.

Alex is a little bit wary of how these creatures would react to a human. But surprisingly, he sees Floyd singing the guitar track of "Us and Them", with its slow paced and soulful sound and Alex is suddenly at ease, and realizes how much he is at home here with a single play of a song. Pink approaches him, and speaks up "Hi Alex, I'm Pink. I've been a wall ever since I can remember and I specialize in building walls and then breaking them down and building them all over again. And this is Floyd the Guitar, his noises are said to be from the Gods of Rock themselves. Don't be fooled by the strange shape, he is the master of beautiful noise. But I give you a warning; he can be sometimes a bit testy and go into crazy tunes. I think he needs to be retuned once in a while" Suddenly Floyd, launches into a guitar riff of "Another Brick in the Wall" and Pink replies "All right All right. I get it...He is the greatest ever".

Alex is amazed at the camaraderie between two after hearing about the war the two waged from Samuel. Samuel reads his thoughts and tells him "The thing is, before I brought you here, I gave them a little warning". "What did you tell them?” asks Alex. Pink gulps and mentions "That he would turn Floyd into dinner and use my bricks as stones to fry Floyd over. Gulp". Alex smiles at Samuel, and thinks, "He must be one mean beast. Thank god, he is on our side".

Now that they have been introduced, Samuel feels its might be time to give the entire picture on what's going on. Samuel beings "Alex, I'm sure you're eager to know why you’re here. While it all might seem strange, it is quiet simple. I brought you here because Floyd and Pink need your help". Alex surprised asks, "What help could possibly a ten year old give a couple of music legends". Pink jumps in and begins to explain "As Samuel told you before our civilization is dying. Good rock music is dying, the Great Wars waged between Floyd and I have left our civilization is shambles. And an alien race called Idols and GotTalents moved in and began destroying our civilization with their infernal music; our civilization couldn't bear to hear it and has been slowly dying off. We're on the brink of extinction."

Alex replies, "That is all extremely sad, but what can I do, I'm just a 10 year old boy who doesn't even know how to sing or play the guitar". Alex suddenly realizes how much of lie he has said and his expressions tell of it. Ever since he first listened to Pink Floyd, he would have endless dreams of being on stage performing "Us and Them", while the entire crowd would be in awe of his voice and his guitar skills. Even though he never had the confidence to ever admit it to anyone, he still would sneak away and learn to play the guitar in the basement while his siblings where snuck away in bed. Samuel looks at him ask him, "Really, Alex. You've never played the guitar? Not even the tune of Us & Them". "Gulp, how did he know that? This is getting dangerous, he reads everything I think" Alex wonders. And then he speaks up "All right, I lied, I'm pretty good at Guitar. But why do you need me? You've Floyd, the descendant of The Rock of Gods".

"Floyd might be of Gods, but his time is coming to an end. And he is no match for the power of the Idols and GotTalents. They've control over the airwaves, brainwaves and even telewaves. And we need a new blood to defeat them, and prove once and for all that the Civilization is still kicking and we want our empire back from these thieves. You can be symbol of hope that we desperately need to bring those in fear and laziness to break out and produce beautiful music and Alex, we all feel you're our Next Rock God"

"I’m not sure if I fit a God, but all right I'm in, so what do you want me to do ", Alex replies. Samuel, clearly happy that Alex has agreed, "Lets sleep for the night, it’s been a long day and you've had to take in a lot. We'll talk once we get some nights rest and the Dark Side of the moon is in its full force again" Alex tries to get shut eye for the night, but his thoughts are transformed into excitement at the prospect of being the Hero that he always dreamt of being and intense trepidation for this mighty unknown race who have stuck so much fear into Floyd and Pink. Well, at the very least, he thinks “Out of the Way, it’s a busy day and I’ve got things on my mind"

Tales of Alex and the Space Exploring Dinosaur- Chapter 2: The Dark Side of the Moon

"Alex wonders to himself , "Wow, the moon looks so beautiful, even though it has a feel of destroyed beauty with its craters, mountains, I could imagine being lost wonderfully in this serene and lonely world". Suddenly Sam turns to him and asks "Who said its lonely?". Stunned for a minute, Alex can't believe firstly that Sam just read his minds and secondly What did he mean We're not lonely. He wonders, what sort of dinosaur is this. His teacher never mentioned that they travelled Space, neither did she say about any speaking legibly and also Dinosaurs are meant to be extinct. Though he was glad Sam wasn't.

Even though Alex's mind were filled with questions and a bit of frustration, he was more occupied by the fact that he was on the moon. The moon where rockets go to with their astronauts and he had reached it within minutes. He couldn't help but being a bit smug. The moon he wished upon every night. As a kid, his grandmother used to tell him stories about the moon, about how it grants wishes and is always present to talk to. So every night before he slept, he used to pray to Moon asking for a companion, a friend who would be with him no matter what and take on adventures into the unknown worlds he dreamt of.

Sam looks at Alex and asks him "Do you want to know, who else is among us?". Alex, though reluctant to find out, grudgingly replies "OK". So Sam tells him a tale of 2 friends, "Have you ever wondered where music came from. Well, long ago there was a civilization of Creatures which ruled the moon. Their form of expression was music. So if someone wanted to cry they would sing "Let it Be", if they were happy it would be "Strawberry Fields Forever", and hence music was created. The kingdom was ruled by 2 leaders, Floyd and Pink. At some point, for certain reasons they had a falling apart. Floyd wanted to play the guitar all day, while Pink wanted to write lyrics. Because they couldn't agree on it, music began crumbling and the civilization slowly start dying out.  And in their desperation they send a record to planet Earth hoping to keep music alive. And this is why the first record of True music on the earth is called The Dark Side of the Moon by Pink Floyd." Alex, while perplexed at the story, can't help asking "Why you telling me this?". Sam, takes a minutes and tells him "I will tell you in some time, lets walk on".

Alex, looks across, how gently Sam's step are. He thought the earth, or rather the moon would shatter every time Sam took a step. He also didn't know that dinosaurs had a pleasant expression, especially seeing those jaws. But Alex trusted Sam, it was if he had met him in a previous life and were best of friends. But yet he couldn't place it where. As they passed, a huge crater, Alex sees fossils of guitars and bricks. He wondered what it was all about. He looks up to Sam and asks, "Why are there remains of guitars and that of a wall here?". Sam looks at him and smiles, and gestures in a direction and what Alex sees next amazes him.

2 creatures, one shaped in the form a guitar and another shaped in the form of wall, arguing with each other. Those must be Floyd and Pink.

Tales of Alex and the Space Exploring Dinosaur- Chapter 1

Alex hardly had any friends growing up and he was the 10th kid of about 20 kids in his family. While being among his family gave him some amount of happiness, he always knew that he could truly never relate with them, not because of who they were but rather because of who he was. His life would always be about fantasies, dreams, and imaginations, lively yet unrealistic folk stories.

When he was 8, he went to the Dinosaur Exhibit at the local museum. While where he grew up there were no dinosaurs fossils and people probably never had heard of one, Alex for some reasons was extremely excited at the prospect. And surely enough the trip to the museum piqued his interests greatly in dinosaurs. Was it the magnificent height and structure of the skeletons, or was it the vivid stories the guide gave on how dinosaurs lived, and how they ruled the earth gazillion years ago, it was clear that Alex would give anything to go back in time to see these beautiful creatures . He was especially in love with the T-Rex, he would dream of being able to roam and scare everyone with it's scary and fearsome tooth. The only thing, he could closely recreate in life was its thunderous roar, which he would obligatory roar at every lunch break in school. The kids at first glance figured he had a nut loose and began making fun of him.But a sympathetic teacher understood his idiosyncrasy and took special interest him and shared with him all the books on dinosaurs she had being fascinated by as a kid.

One night, deep in his sleep he was woken up by roar outside his bedroom window. For a minute he thought it might have been a dream like the ones he had been having for the past few weeks and decided to go back to bed. But again, he heard a roar.He was tensed but yet curiously peeked outside his window. And wow, there stood a beautiful yet scary T-Rex Dinosaur. Alex couldn't believe his eyes, he pinched himself, gave himself a knock on the head and threw water on himself, but yet the creature still remained. Clearly this musn't be a dream and then to make things even weirder, it spoke, "Hello Alex, I'm Sam, the space exploring Dinosaur"...Shell shocked, Alex didn't speak a word. Alex was a very quiet kid and rarely spoke up even when he was excited. So he kept quiet hoping Sam would speak for him. Then Sam asked, "Do you want to see the moon? I can get you there in a few minutes". Alex was beyond belief and without uttering a single word he just nodded in agreement and grabbed his camera to ensure that in the morning he had proof to show his siblings.

Samuel takes Alex slowly in his claws, Alex can't help getting scarred thinking that those very claw have eaten so many creatures. Surely he couldn't be another. Samuel gently places him on his back and asks him to hold on. And they're off. As they blast off, he can see his house, the local tea shop, the ground where he plays every weekend, then he sees the bridge he takes every day to go to school and suddenly he sees his school, it looks so green from up above. He is so excited at the prospect of flying. Then he sees India, next to it Sri Lanka and miles and miles of beautiful blue oceans. The oceans sparkles like one of the diamonds he sees the rich lady next-door wears, except the ocean is a lot nicer and prettier.

Samuel asks him, how he finds the trip. He wants to tell him its unbelievable, breathtaking, and that he saw all cars driving up an downs the streets, that he thought all the houses looked like cardboard boxes from up above, yet all he tells him is "It's Ok, thank you". The kid despite wanting to tell so much more is scared to talk more, but yet he does tell him a "Thank You" because he realizes that Samuel made his dream come true, Being with a dinosaur and exploring the supernova. He wants to ask him so much, who he is, what he does, how does he live, he can't wait to know everything. He is bloody excited, and then Samuel tells him to look out and see what is on the horizon. He looks up, he sees the beautiful blue moon. He has seen them through Anand’s telescope and imagined of how the craters on the moon were actually Dinosaur footsteps. And now he can't believe that it might be actually true. He can't wait to get to the moon, and drive the moon rover.

I Promise!!!!!

I promise, this is my final and uninterrupted entry into the blogging world. While, you "eagerly" await my return, enjoy some of my older entries from my older and aborted blogs. Hopefully the coming days should show a return of form for me in more than one ways...